Waiting on the Lord

"God is never inactive in our wait time." --Beth Moore, Esther (session 5 video) I remember standing in my mother-in-love's kitchen, in the spring of 2009, weeping as I watched this video. I wept because I knew this was the truth----but more so because I had missed this truth and dredged through our "wait time" in weakness. 

Beth Moore went on to say, "We feel so weak in the wait-----when we wait upon the event, the thing, the person we will be weak. BUT--when we wait upon the Lord our strength will be renewed. "

²⁸Have you not known? Have you not heard?The LORD is the everlasting God,

   the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He does not faint or grow weary;

   his understanding is unsearchable.

²⁹He gives power to the faint,

   and to him who has no might he increases strength.

³⁰Even youths shall faint and be weary,

   and young men shall fall exhausted;

³¹but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;

   they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

   they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31

As I was standing there, I was 6 1/2 months pregnant with our son, Nathan. We had waited on this precious gift for over 4 1/2 years. A miscarriage and several years of unexplained infertility had passed by------and I was waiting on a child----not the Lord---and I was weak and my heart was troubled in that time. 

The Lord was with me during that time. He was completely sovereign in that time. His timing was perfect. His plan was right and for our good. The reality, as I stood there thinking back, was that I realized this truth in hindsight and not in the midst. It broke my heart and comforted me at the same time.

John Piper says, "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him". 

I want, with all my heart, to be satisfied in Him.

My husband, Jeron, was teaching last week to our students---and remembrance of this time was brought to my heart and mind.

He was teaching from James 1 on trials. The truth penetrated deep into my soul, yet again. We are all in trials---whether we think we are, or not. If we are in need of something, or long for something (like a child), our trial is in wanting "the thing" over wanting God. If we have everything we need and things are good, our trial is that we rely on "the things" more than we rely on God. How perplexing---and true. 

We battle every day to desire God above all things---to be most satisfied in Him. And for me, I fall on my face daily. And there is grace . . .

Jesus, You're my Great Reward
You are my portion, Lord
and while in heaven you plead for me
draw my every thought to Thee

I love you, Lord
Jesus my King
I want to love You more
my Great Reward

I have this treasure in a jar of clay
All You glory on display 

Im a sinner who was saved by grace
You have made me a dwelling place

You are all I'm living for
I'm moving toward the prize
One thing I ask
and this I seek
to gaze into Your eyes

Shane & Shane

He is our Great Reward! 

He is the only thing that can satisfy my deepest longings! 

He is the One I wait upon. 

We are in a "wait time" again in our lives.

A journey of trust and surrender. 

Lord willing, we will have the incredible blessing of adopting soon.

This time, though I am still learning, my soul rests in the sovereignty of God. I am weak in my flesh---but I am strong in Him.

I look forward to sharing how amazing God is as we continue to move forward------waiting on Him. 

The Learning Curve

I feel like every day I am learning. Learning about my Savior, about my salvation, about serving, about loving, about being a wife, about being a mom, about praying, about being a steward of God's blessings, about humility, about faith and trusting the only One who is worthy of our trust . . .

There are some days I receive these lessons with an open heart and a willing spirit. Most days, however, I really feel like I am facing quite a learning curve. I feel unprepared, under-equipped, lacking in most of these areas. I battle my flesh and the enemy in the effort to surrender to my Savior. I have found that being at the end of myself---knowing that I can not do or be these things on my own---is exactly where I need to be. Not to live defeated---but to live surrendered to Christ---victorious! I need Him every day to manifest His grace in me that I may glorify Him in all I do.

And so begins my "blogging" journey. I find it odd to share about myself. Therefore, my hope for this blog is to make much of Him who has changed my life forever in the most amazing ways. I hope to share His wonders, His lessons, His love, His leading.

All for the sake of telling the world (at least the itty bitty part of it that might see this blog) that:


God created everything (Psalm 19:1, Psalm 22:28, Psalm 24:1, Isaiah 44:24),


 He created you for His glory (Psalm 29:1-2, Isaiah 43:6-7, 1 Corinthians 10:31), 


He is holy and righteous (Leviticus 19:2, 37, Deuteronomy 32:4, Romans 7:12), 


We are sinful people (Romans 3:10-18, 20, 23), 


God is just and is right to punish sin (Isaiah 59:2, Romans 1:18, Romans 6:23a), 


God is merciful--He is kind to undeserving sinners (Psalm 145:8), 


Jesus is God's holy and righteous Son (John 1:1, 14, 1 Timothy 1:15), 


God put the punishment of sinners on Jesus--so that His righteousness might be put on them (Isaiah 53:5, Romans 5:8, 2 Corinthians 5:21, 1 Peter 2:24), 


God offers the free gift of salvation to those who repent and believe in Jesus (Mark 1:15, John 3:16-17, Acts 4:12, Ephesians 2:8-9), 


and Those who trust in Jesus will live to please Him and will receive the promise of eternal life--enjoying God forever in heaven (Luke 9:23, John 11:25, 1 John 2:15, Psalm 16:11)


----The Gospel 


(adapted from Helping Children Understand the Gospel from Children Desiring God---childrendesiringgod.org)




I feel like our family always has many, many reasons to make much of Him. I look forward to sharing why we are . . . Hoping in Grace





^"3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, ⁴ even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love ⁵ he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, ⁶ to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved. ⁷In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses,according to the riches of his grace, ⁸which he lavished upon us, in all wisdom and insight ⁹making known to us the mystery of his will, according to his purpose, which he set forth in Christ ¹⁰as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth." Ephesians 1:3-10